I read a blog post that made me cry. And when I say cry, I am not talking about graceful tears skipping down my cheek... I ugly cried for over an hour. Beautiful words of a woman's story that I know God meant for me to read... they convicted me, broke me, softened me, challenged me, and healed me all at the same time. Most of all, they reminded me that it's not about me.
Caught on a day when I was so wrapped up in my own problems... my very petty problems. My day was ruled by worry and discontentment... a dozen half-fights to trust in Sovereign God, each followed by a complete surrender to the absorption of the day.
That's what I've started calling it... that false god that I know is constantly trying sit on the pedestal of my life. The day steals my seconds, moments, and hours with life-absorbing meaningless. It's a focus on anything and everything that is now... ((the laundry, what's for dinner, that show that comes on tonight, are the kids getting sick, when will I wash my hair again?)) Meaningless, though necessary some may be, these thoughts swirl and tumble in my head and become my master. And in truth, since those thoughts are my thoughts, the master of the day is really me.
Isn't that always our tendency? To elevate ourselves beyond what we should? To assume a God-like position in our lives? When Satan tempted Eve in the garden He said,
"God knows that when you eat of (the fruit) your eyes will be opened, and you will be like God." (Gen. 3:5)
The first sin is not unlike any other sin... trying to usurp God's place in our lives... to claim godhood for ourselves.
When I read this blog post that Michele wrote about sweet Adam's story, I wept. I wept for the self-centeredness of my heart. I wept for the pettiness of the day. I wept as I remembered the words of my Savior:
"Did you not know, that I must be about my father's business?" (Luke 2:49)
I am a child of God. And I must be about my Father's business. That doesn't excuse me from daily tasks... Jesus had to bathe and eat and sleep and clean. But it should change my focus. It should cast down the idol of the day and place Sovereign God and His desires in the rightful place as center of my life. It should cause me to make much of the things that are on the Lord's heart and to view life's trivialities from the proper perspective. That's the challenge, isn't it? To live the day and not let it have lordship over our lives. To surrender all things and each precious second, moment, and hour at His feet and to be about His business. Adam's story reminded me of this.
Born with a rare syndrome called Bartsocas-Papas and adopted by a loving family that has committed to mirroring God's love into his live, Adam's story is a beautiful picture of redeeming and sacrificial love. The Paulraj family is currently raising funds for the medical bills for Adam, and I know that this is the Father's business. So it is something that I must take part in... and perhaps it is something that you feel you must be about as well.
This print is now available to be purchased and downloaded in my shop.
The cost is only $5, and every single dollar will go towards funding Adam's medical bills. I encourage you to read about the Paulraj family and Adam's story here. God used their testimony to turn my heart away from self and more fully toward His desires, and I trust that God will continue to use this precious boy's story to bring Him all glory and honor and praise! It is all about Him, and may we always be about His business.